It’s rather funny how things turn out…
Your feelings feel so secured and feels as if everything is all planned out
But the moment when you realize the unthinkable is possible you begin to have doubt
The moment when life actually gives your heart a second chance
The moment when you actually open your eyes and stop seeing everything at glance
The moment where IT hits you and the feeling of surreal fazes
From that moment on where ever you go you feel like your in a daze
You come to a stop, take a breath and begin to realize
While your in a daze you don’t realize you’ve been walking around in a maze
Too caught up in the moment, Too caught up in that feeling
You begin to pick up where it all started
Started with two hearts that were capable of love and slowly became the departed
THE MOMENT has hit you now…. THE MOMENT called realization
Realization that can be easily blinded by fiction
Too caught up in THAT MOMENT where you thought you knew what you wanted
Too caught up in THAT MOMENT where it left memories in your mind haunted
Finally gotten what you thought what you wanted but REALIZE
What you first had and knew you what you wanted, broke away and became a stray
Finally comes back leaving you with high hopes and good intentions
Isn’t really what you expected…. it’s not the same person who always comes back when you realize they have cruel intentions
somebodys bday card for the 18th =)
She does LOVE ME! :)
The thing about life that I’ve learned is that you’re going to get hurt. You’re going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. You feel like you’re alive again. Life just kind of restarts.
I saw you today and realized how far apart we’ve grown. I know I should talk to you and ask you how you’re doing. And I really wish I could. But it’s just occurred to me that we’re strangers now. You don’t know me anymore, much less want to, and it’s okay that you’ve moved on. I know that everything’s different now. I’ve been staying strong.
It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.
It’s so easy to say I’m fine without him, but deep down inside, I’m hurt and I have to pretend I am alright, smile and hold behind the tears because from what I can see, he is doing fine without me.
I really hated the way you made me feel… yet I still long for what we had. Even though you make me at times sad. You’ll never understand what you had.
